I still have flashbacks from explosion that wrecked my home
Marie McDowall spent nearly all her savings buying and refurbishing a house in South Ayrshire, in which she planned to spend her retirement enjoying time with her family.
The 66-year-old moved to Kincaidston, near Ayr, in June 2021 â she liked the area, had joined the local bowling club and was looking forward to walking to the nearby community centre.
Four months later, while sitting on her porch, she heard an explosion.
A corroded gas pipe caused the blast outside a neighbouring property, leaving a family of four in hospital and the surrounding homes either destroyed or beyond repair.
âI didnât know what happened,â said Marie. âI ran out, as did everybody. I saw the house, there was nothing left.
âI was just sitting on my porch and boom, I lost everything practically,â
There were no fatalities as a result of the blast on 18 October â but its impact on the community is still being felt nearly three years on.
Marie was left completely deaf in one ear and partially deaf in the other. She has also suffered from panic attacks and depression.
âI had nightmares, I still sometimes have flashbacks,â she said.
âI did try to have an appointment with a counsellor but that was during Covid and they wouldnât do face-to-face, it was all online which I really didnât find useful.â
Many of the residents were left fighting insurance battles to cover the cost of the damage to cars and properties.
Marieâs house was initially left standing, but was eventually demolished alongside the other worst-affected homes.
She has been forced to move into two rental properties â the second because her first landlord decided to sell up â and has had to scrape together furniture for her current accommodation.
The rent is covered by her insurer Direct Line Group, but she has not yet received a payout for contents and does not think she will get any compensation.
Now the area remains an empty fenced-off site and there is no clear date as to when the homes will be rebuilt.
Much of Marieâs sadness is rooted in not having a place to call her own home.
âItâs the house, I want my own home,â she said. âThis isnât my home, I canât put pictures up on the wall.
âThe houses were to be rebuilt, should have been this year in October but now the company is saying it could be next year. Itâs at the back of my mind every night -somebody just do something.
âIâm sitting here miserable. I donât know what else to do.â
âExtremely complexâ
In September 2022, the Health and Safety Executive (HSE) released a report into the cause of the explosion.
It said there were ânumerous localised spots of corrosionâ in the service pipe leading to Number 3 Gorse Park but there would be no prosecutions â a conclusion that some residents described as a âkick in the teethâ.
Meanwhile, Ramsay McMichael Consulting took on the project management 15 months after the explosion and it warned that initial timescales were subject to change.
It said its âfocus has been on the interests of all the ownersâ and it has been âliaising with the other stakeholders through a financially complex projectâ in a sympathetic way.
It said it was now nearing the procurement stage which will lead to the project moving to site shortly thereafter.
Insurer Direct Line Group said it remained very sympathetic to Marieâs situation, which it described as âextremely complexâ.
The company said it was in âdialogue regarding the construction of her new homeâ and was liaising with her to agree settlement of her contents claim.
Marie hopes the wait will not be too long.