Lauren Mayberry of Chvrches: I was always trying to make everyone happy
Lauren Mayberry is a peacemaker.
Since 2011, sheâs been frontwoman of the Glaswegian band Chvrches, topping festival bills and the album charts with a trademark barrage of distorted synths and razor-sharp melodies.
Mayberry was the baby of the band â just 23 when she joined, and years younger than her bandmates, Iain Cook and Martin Doherty.
But their chemistry was instant. Chvrchesâ debut single, The Mother We Share, was written and recorded in 48 hours, using the only three synths they owned â but it became a word of mouth hit, earning them airplay on BBC Radio 1 and support slots with Passion Pit and Depeche Mode.
In the press, they carefully presented themselves as a band, with each member receiving equal billing. But Mayberry says she worried about being the junior partner.
âI was always conscious that I was younger than the other guys, and they had a lot more experience,â she says.
âTheyâd been to music school, and I hadnât. So I always felt like I was on the back foot, in terms of where I sat in the hierarchy.â
That feeling was amplified during a 2019 tour of Australia.
The itinerary gave the band a four-day break in Melbourne, and Mayberry was looking forward to spending the downtime with her bandmates and the crew â until she discovered theyâd made separate plans and she was stranded in her hotel room.
âI remember being very upset and hurt by that because I was always worrying about everyone else and taking care of everybody, and it was a humbling moment,â she says.
âIn the end, I hired a little car and drove to an Australian spa town and had a wee cry listening to Taylor Swiftâs Cruel Summer.â
Looking back, she thinks that being the only woman in the touring party left her carrying the âemotional labourâ of keeping the show on the road.
âI feel like I twisted myself into a pretzel sometimes to make everyone happy.
âThen Iâd look back and think, âAnd were you happy?â
âNot really, but I was keeping the peace.â
She considered leaving the band after that Australian incident. Then Covid struck, and Chvrches ended up making a fourth album, 2021âs Screen Violence, remotely.
She finally took the plunge a year later, but not before signing a new record deal with her bandmates, assuring the future of the project.
âI was conscious it would give people a sense of security, that Iâd made a commitment,â she says.
âI donât know that thatâs how it actually works, but that was my hope.â
Sheâs keen to stress thereâs no bad blood: Martin and Doherty have given her their full support. Still, itâs natural for someone leaving a band to define themselves in opposition to that music â otherwise whatâs the point?
As Mayberry succinctly puts it: âI didnât want to make a crap knock-off Chvrches record.â
In recording sessions, sheâd flinch when anyone pulled out a vintage synth. Instead, she pursued a more organic, lyrics-first approach.
But after a decade in a trio, the instinct to compromise was hard-wired.
âIâm very used to arguing my point, then trying to see other peopleâs point of view,â she says.
âSo it was a real learning curve to be like, âNo, this is my opinion, and if I donât think itâs right, then itâs not right, and thatâs the end of the conversationâ.â
Crying wolf
The result is Vicious Creature, an album that showcases new depths to Mayberryâs voice, which fluctuates between vulnerability and venom, while paying homage to her pop heroines.
She channels the spirit of All Saints on the album opener Something In The Air; and borrows the choppy, sampled strings of Annie Lennoxâs Walking On Broken Glass to power the single Crocodile Tears.
The latter is a furious riposte to an emotionally manipulative man, where Mayberry snarls: âWhat a man will say just to get his way / Always crying wolf, so Iâm sad to say / I donât really wanna hear it from you, babeâ.
The singer says sheâs role-playing in that song, inspired by the dark, subversive femininity of Velma Kelly in the musical Chicago, or Cabaretâs Sally Bowles.
Itâs one of several songs that survived the first incarnation of the album â tentatively titled Fiction â that would be âdark, theatrical and character drivenâ.
Slowly, over time, more personal songs started to creep into the mix.
The syncopated pulse of Change Shapes is a condemnation of music industry sexism (âIâm a doll inside a box, with a ball and a chainâ). Sorry, Etc tells a similar story over a chaotic hybrid of garage rock and drum & bass.
âThere were definitely a few songs where it was at best expressing frustrations and at worst [feeling] kind of hurt,â about her life in music, Mayberry says.
The albumâs most intimate moment is a muted piano ballad called Oh, Mother.
Over three verses, Mayberry documents the shifting relationship with her mother â from the unquestioning love of childhood to adolescent disgust and, finally, the realisation that their time together is limited.
âIt kills me to know you wonât be around,â she sings gently. âOh mother, what will I do without you?â
The last song written for the record, the words poured out after Mayberryâs friend and co-writer Dan McDougall sketched out the chords in the studio.
Discussing the lyrics, which were inspired by a family illness, the singer becomes a little emotional.
âWhen youâre living in the shadow of things like that, itâs on your mind all the time,â she says.
âI think about it all the time. When I go away on tour, I always think, âOh, is this the tour where Iâm gone and I miss itâ.
âSo that last afternoon in the studio was quite a weepy one⊠But then we went to Nandoâs. So itâs all about balance.â
Oh, Mother is the sort of song she could never have written in Chvrches, Mayberry says.
âItâs not a place that we would go emotionally or sonically,â she says.
âI think the best songs happen when the lyrics and the meaning and the sonics interlink but [with Chvrches] I was writing things in my notebooks and thinking, âThis is never going to fit with what the band have builtâ.â
Change is never easy, though. While some reviews have called the album a âmasterclass in pop alchemyâ, others have said Mayberry âstill sounds like someone finding their feetâ.
Fans of Chvrchesâ industrial sound have expressed disappointment too, but the singer has learned to distance herself from criticism.
âWhen people are like, âScrew youâ, I rationalise it like this: Youâre mad at me, but youâre mad at me because life is hard, and our music made your life a bit easier for a minute. And now youâre like, âPlease donât take that away.â
âWhen I was 24, that was overwhelming, but it made sense once I could compartmentalise it.
âYou are the representative of something that means so much to this person â so when you do something else, it threatens the idea of that existing.â
The flipside of that equation comes in concert. When Mayberry plays a song like Asking For A Friend, with its reassuring mantra, âyou still matterâ, she often sees âsomeone in the audience having a wee dance-cryâ.
âAnd when people cry, I cry. Everyoneâs like, âAre you ok?â but Iâm just caught up in the moment.
âBut I hope thatâs why Iâm good at my job, because I have some kind of empathy.
âItâs inconvenient for my life, but hopefully good for the crowd.â